Mar 20th 2022

I can’t remember the last time I wrote. It seems like it’s been forever. As expected, I sit here and wonder what it is that I am supposed to write. Should my journaling continue in the format of prayers, or something else? I guess ultimately, it doesn’t matter and I don’t need to overthink it.

I’ve felt the urge to write for quire sometime. There is so much goin on in life right now. So much change. So much growth. Opportunities that few people could ever even dream of, along with the promise of having the true freedom of my time to be present with my family they way that I always want to be. Hmmm…the freedom of my time to spend with my family is a concept that almost feels hard to grasp at this point. I feel like I’ve been working for so incredibly long at building a life that doesn’t dictate my time, my timelines, and my limitations, that it would be a significant adjustment to not have to be in that position anymore. I have the image in my head of waking up on a Saturday morning and making breakfast with my boys. Teaching Jackson how to make perfect pancakes—the way my daddy taught me—and teaching Tatum how to make eggs. No tight timelines. No meetings to run to. Just pure, unadulterated family time. We’ll make a mess, but that’s okay. There is time, and ample patience to clean it up. I would say that I don’t know how realistic such a vision is, but what is realistic or not depends on no one outside of myself.

The thing is, for some of these little things, I don’t need to be wealthy or debt free. I just need to BE. My challenge is that I want that freedom so badly, that all I want to do it work towards it. As long as I remain in debt, I remain a slave—bound to those that I owe money to. Until I am free, I don’t own my life. I don’t own all of my choices, because they must come from a place of scarcity and restriction. That’s what I have to free myself and my family. That is why I work so hard. I want my children to grow up in a world in which they have true freedom. I want their imagination and pursuits to have no bounds. When they think of trying to solve huge problems, may the scope of their solutions not be limited to a specific scenario or situation. I want them to be able to chase their dreams and bring the value that they desire to society, without the limitations that mommy and daddy had growing up.

As with all high potential opportunity, there comes a degree of stress. Lord, there is a lot on my plate right now. That is not a complaint, as this is what I asked for. There is a lot on my plate because what I’m asking for is way more than I’ve ever asked for and way more than I’ve ever experienced. Help me not to fear. Help me not to doubt. Help me to trust in you and where and how you’ve directed me so far. Help me to trust that you, who began a good work in me with be faithful to complete it. Help me to trust my prayers, Lord. Lord, I pray for wisdom, grace, and favor as you help me to navigate this season. I pray for competence and confidence as we finish out the Collypto MVP and get it to market. I pray that you will send the right people along to help us, and give us a special blessing when it comes to setting up and presenting in our meetings. Despite the doubts of those around us, those who don’t understand what we’re doing, and those who simply wish for us to fail, I pray that you will give us supernatural success. I pray for your protection over our business, our products, and our team. I pray against any regulations that will seek to shut us down. And Lord, I pray for our success. I pray for stratospheric success and that we would, by far, exceed even our ideal growth projections. I pray for supernatural wealth, and I think you that your blessings bring wealth and you add no trouble to it.

I pray that through it all—even as our resources and prominence grow—that you will walk beside us. Help Carlisa and I to always excuse your grace, your generosity, and overall, your heart. May our hearts stay wrapped in yours. May we long for what you long for. May we seek the things that you heart is seeking. May we honor you with our lives, with our love, with our giving, with our parenting, in our relationships, and in our marriage. May we not be pulled away by the trappings of our newfound means, or by who are now drawn to us. I pray that you protect us from those who wish us harm. May we have spirits of discernment so that we are not taken advantage of. May we be wise in our giving. And Lord, I pray that you would help us to keep our family first. While we may be involved in a lot, I pray that our family will always feel like family. May we be each other’s safe place. May our children know they are loved. May we know them and they know us. May we remain humble—and not out of some misguided sense of insecurity—but because we understand that we are no better than the next person. May our lights shine for you, Father God, and may people see the You in us. May the way we give bring glory and honor to your name. May that be our heart’s motivation, rather than our own glory. Show us how to give responsibly, and wisely. May we continue to be a blessing to others, and help the we help to become a blessing, so that your goodness continues to be passed on.

I know that I think a lot about the cars and the house, and toys, but may that never be where I store my treasure. May those things never be elevated above you. Yes, they are a goal of mine, but they are just things that we get along the way. May they never be my source of identity or worth. I pray for healthy minds and hearts as it comes to our wealth. I pray for healthy hearts, minds, and bodies in general as we move forward in life. May we honor you with our bodies, in the way that we take care of them. May our ears be attentive to your words, and may our hearts be sensitive to your direction. Lead us. Guide us. In Jesus name. Amen.